The very first guy who helped me out when I got to Chicago in ’86 was Jim Ellison. I did not know him as “the guy in Material Issue”. I just knew him as “the guy who booked Batteries Not Included”, a dingy little club that seemingly held about ten people. I remember seeing Green (a band that Jim had been in briefly) perform at the club, the only light in the entire place was a bare light bulb hanging over the stage. The near-darkness just made the band seem that much bigger; the audience a sweaty glow mere inches below them. It was a magical night, one of my first in the big city, and I immediately decided to try getting a gig there.
Within seconds of contacting Jim, he and I were talking about bands we loved. We bonded over early Bee Gees and the Sweet. Without even hearing my band, he gave me a gig opening for, of all bands, Green.
At the show, I remember looking out at the audience from the stage and seeing one guy who, despite being at floor level, was still taller than me. After the show, he sought me out and introduced himself. He told me we put on a great show and that he dug our cover of “Stepping Stone”. Jim explained his plans for a gig, Battle Of The Trios – three bands, each with three members. It would be Material Issue, Urge Overkill (who I hadn’t heard of before), and the other band was still up in the air.
“Do you guys wanna play the gig?”, he asked.
We had just hired a fourth guy to flesh out our sound, but here Jim was egging me on to ditch him so we could play this gig as a three-piece. Knowing a good gig when I saw one, my band was immediately trimmed back down to a trio for the gig. We told our new guitarist (and fourth member) that it would just be for this show, but he was so pissed that he quit the band altogether.
It was an amazing show. My first taste of Urge Overkill was that they were sloppy as hell, but the crowd was going ape-shit the whole time. Material Issue were tighter than Jim’s jeans (if you’ve seen him in person, you know what I’m talking about) and played a revved-up brand of Cheap Trick-meets-Badfinger rock that I dug completely. In hindsight, we must have paled by comparison, but the crowd was intensely supportive and we made a ton of new fans whose faces we saw at later shows.
Material Issue was Jim’s first love and, truth be told, he was his own biggest fan. This rubbed a lot of people the wrong way, but he always went out of his way to be cool to me. Nine times out of ten, our interaction seemed to involve him offering to help me out in one way or another. Come to think of it, he never asked me for a darn thing. Still, there were people on the scene who thought he was a huge jerk. Turns out that even people who were close to him had very mixed feelings about the guy.
A mutual friend, who had begrudgingly invited Jim over for Thanksgiving when they discovered he had no other place to go, later commented that they'd initially found it odd that Jim wouldn’t just spend the holiday with his parents, who lived nearby. After spending the entire day with Ellison, though, they could understand why he had no other place to go. They didn’t offer specifics, nor did I ask, but it was implied that Jim had overstayed his welcome.
Jeff Murphy, who produced the band’s first two albums for Mercury and was a member of the band Shoes, had this to say about Jim in an interview:
“I enjoyed the music tremendously, but Jim could be difficult to work with and there were times when he and I would argue over things. He was not at all technology based and would not even tune his guitar; I did it for him. He once broke a string during a recording while doing a lead and the guitar went flying out of tune. When I stopped the tape and told him to re-string his guitar he argued that he 'meant' to do that. But that was just Jim. We remained friends and he called me at the studio about something a few weeks before his death [in June, 1996].” (courtesy of PerfectSoundForever)
In ’95, I was playing drums in the Longfellows (led by my longtime friend Jim Allen, who had also been in Montserrat/The Plaids with me). We were playing a gig in support of our pals, The Elvis Brothers at Schuba’s and Ellison came out to the show. I was standing at the bar waiting for my drink when he came up, shook my hand, and told me that he dug my drumming. He then let it slide that he was forming a new band apart from Material Issue, who had been dropped from their Mercury deal, and asked if I might want to play drums in the project.
Turns out he had asked quite a few guys to play drums in the band, but none of them wanted to be in a band with him. My slant is that most of these guys had egos as big or bigger than Jim’s. Me, on the other hand…
He was also doing gigs with The Wild Bunch, a somewhat cheesy bar band that included Gilby Clark, Pat from the Smithereens, and a few others whose names escape me. Between this and some continued work with Material Issue (including a collaboration with Liz Phair), he was pretty busy. We rehearsed a few times, cut some incredibly rough demos, and then I just hit the wall. Sick of Chicago and wanting a change, I split for the postcard panoramas of Colorado.
Months later, Jim Allen called to tell me the news: Jim Ellison had killed himself, supposedly over an ex-girlfriend. I remember being so dumbfounded by the news that my girlfriend thought for a moment that the late-night call might have been about a death in my immediate family.
The local Chicago scene was abuzz over the news. There was talk that drugs were involved and all sorts of sordid rumors were flying around. Most sickening of all was the fact that tapes of phone messages Jim had left on his ex-girlfriend's answering machine were now circulating. A lot of people were all having a good laugh at Jim’s expense. After all, he was the cocky rock star who killed himself over a girl. To them, he deserved it.
Before I’d left Chicago, Jim had given me a tape of new Material Issue demos. I admit that I wasn’t that wowed by the tunes initially and just filed the tape in my huge “box o’tapes”. A few days after his death, though, I dug out the tape and sat on my futon in the dark listening to Jim’s voice, trying to hear something that might have been a clue to why he chose to end it all. The song titles on the cassette were scribbled in Ellison’s own handwriting: “Satellite”, “976-LOVE”, and one called, simply, “Boyfriend” which, when I heard it, chilled me to the bone.
Sample lyrics:
“What if I killed your boyfriend/What if I shot him down?
What if I killed your boyfriend?/Maybe then you’d want me around.”
I thought to myself 'How many months had he been aching for this woman, losing his grip the harder he tried to keep her?' Christ, what must the guys in his band have thought when he brought in a song like this? They had to know something was wrong.
I admit that I was initially very confused by Jim taking his life. He was the one guy I'd have never thought capable of such a thing. He was confidence personified. That Jim would take his life because he couldn’t be with the girl of his dreams seemed absurd.
Then, as luck would have it, I lost the girl of my dreams and spun into the very same abyss from which Jim never escaped. I felt as if I was living one page after another from Jim’s diary.
Complicating matters further, cancer was also having its way with me at the time so I felt attacked from all sides and was just too exhausted to deal with things rationally. I came so close to ending it all, too. I tried. I went so far as to write notes saying goodbye to family and friends, then I realized what an overly dramatic little puss I sounded like and promptly burned them in the fireplace.
Thankfully, a few people who weren’t really even my friends yet showed immense kindness and understanding during that time. They became great friends and showed me that it was possible to start life over again. Thanks to them, the part of me that wanted to live won out over the part of me that didn’t.
Going through that ordeal, though, I gained a completely new appreciation for Jim Ellison as a person. I have him to thank for years of friendship with no strings attached and for kindness beyond reason. I also have him to thank for some great music, some of which I’d like to share with you now.
Intro From The Band
Bad Time
Blockbuster
The Boxer (live)
Bus Stop
I'd Wait A Million Years
Little Willy
Run To Me
(thanks Ginch!)

11 comments:
Damn, THAT was the story on Jim Ellison I've longed to hear for more than a decade. Like you, I was in Chicago when Jim rocked, and when Jim passed. How could a man who brought down the roof at venue after venue pass without making nary a blip on the local media (I'm talking to YOU Allison Rosati). I remember keeping XRT on around the clock and desperately hoping JBTV would do a tribute. Thankfully they did. I was never plugged into guyville and therefore never met Jim in person. But damm were those concerts awesome. Prior to arriving in Chicago in 91, all I had was a Material Issue promo cassette for the first album (an interview and some tracks). I was quickly an obsessive fan (just for tickets and albums). Though, years later I did meet Ted Ansani when he performed at Record Emporium on Paulina. So, thank you for bringing back memories of an amazing musician and a wonderful time in rock history. I'm also in the Valley now, so hopefully I'll see you in concert soon. The Darren Robbins tracks you posted on your web site are awesome. The future of rock and roll looks very bright indeed.
I've browsed literally thousands of MP3 blogs over the years, but I rarely leave comments. In fact, this is only my third. But I simply had to thank you for this post. I was a pretty big fan of Material Issue when those first two albums came out, and was very saddened by the news of Jim's death. I had never heard the whole story before. Thank you for taking the time to share these memories with all of us.
Thank you, Darren, for writing this story of the life and death of Jim Ellison. I am also a fan of Material Issue, but I did not know about Ellison's other contributions or the details of his death.
I have also considered suicide (long in the past) and experienced the suicide of someone very close to me who surrendered to it. It's a life-altering experience.
I used to be a HUGE fan of Material Issue when I was a teenager...Jim Ellison was my biggest crush, I remember being 12 years old and my sister took me to my first concert, Material Issue (my favorite band in my life). It is a complete shock to know that Jim Ellison committed suicide! I just so happened to look them up on yahoo music today to watch the old videos, and it made me wonder, "where are they now?" I am stunned!!! Thank you so very much for writing this memory of his life, I always wondered what he was like as a person....I will never forget the great days of when Material Issue was my favorite band and Jim Ellison was the hottest guy with his chili bowl haircut...I will always keep their music in my cd collection and I hope that one day I could see their tale be told on the E! true hollywood story!
wow...thanks for sharing this...brought back lots of memories.
I'll admit I skim-read it (my daughter I suspect has been doing some of that as she finishes "summer reading" for school this week), but I wanted to thank you for the very nice piece on Jim Ellison.
I really liked those Material Issue records. They rocked and some clever lyrics too.
I had heard that he was a bit of a jerk, but since his death I have read a few things like your article that give a broader picture of who he was and what he was like.
It is a real shame he died.
Ace
Thank you for posting this beautiful and very important blog. I hope it makes it higher in Google search results, etc. All you get in the top 10 these days on Ellison and Material Issue are Wikipedia entries and all these short media bios that tell you nothing about the human being. I find it hard to believe that someone who was so briefly but hugely famous (in comparison to many of us) - videos all over MTV, concerts all over the country - does not have more friends and fellow musicians who have more to say about him (and about knowing him), who have told more about his story or, at least, his thoughts, his life, and where his lyrics and music came from. I've found more, accidentally, about complete nobody's dogs and cats on Google and Myspace than I have found with some effort about this incredibly gifted man with such a short-lived career. I hope others who knew him take your lead and post more to blogs so that people who love his music and care about the soul behind the man can learn more about him - "minor" a musician though he was. And, you know, one last thing - Material Issue may have been "minor", but all you have to do is listen to that scream in "Valerie Loves Me" - all the irony, incredible pain and passion it contains, the abosolutely authentic sentiment it conveys - and you realize that Jim Ellison was no minor man, no minor artist/lyricist/singer. He was one of the many great souls, great songwriters and singers/artists, that get lost between the cracks in this world of seemingly limitless talent and time. Thanks for helping us to remember one of these "minor" ones.
Thank you for such a great personal article on Jim Ellison.
In way or another, we all can relate to his lyrics. Singing about heartbreak is one of the most common thing musicians sing about. However, Ellison and Material Issue got it right by making their songs sound so personal and touching without - I don't care what others say to the contrary - sounding too cheesy.
Like most fans of Material Issue, I was shocked to hear about Ellison's death and even more shocked to learn of the details behind it.
Like you, I found it hard to believe that his suicide did revolve around a lost love.
When I recently went through some very hard times with my wife, thinking my marriage was over, I counterintuitively got emotionally lifted by hearing over and over, and over, Material Issues's "Merry Christmas Will Do." I'll keep the meaning of this song to myself, as this song has become so important to me.
Whether he was hard to get along with or whether he was truly full of himself, there is no denying he was a very good song writer and a very good performer.
As a true fan of Material Issue, I hope that Ellison's memory will live on through the band's many, many good songs.
Thanks again for your article on Ellison. I wish there were more.
-Alessio
Thank you for this post. I was a big fan of the band and after a while became a friend of theirs as well. Although I could see how Jim could be difficult to get along with, I always got along great with him and will always love with with all of my heart. I'm having a baby soon and am naming him Ellison after a wonderful friend I miss dearly.
Thanks again for sharing your lovely story.
Thanks for this great post. It's a rare thing to get such insight into an artist. I was a huge Material Issue fan. I don't think there is anything they recorded that is not on my iPod. Really great post.
Great tribute to Jim.
Any chance these tracks would be fixed/reuploaded? Would love to hear them...
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